lessons from my Jade Egg #4

THERE'S SOMETHING WRONG HERE, AND ITS NOT YOUR BODY.

Whenever her came home, my body closed.  My knees locked together.  In my head I would coax them to part, I'd tell them we were safe, it was OK to relax.  I willed them to part.  Has your body ever over-ridden your will?  It's how it feels when you give birth and your body takes over whilst your mind (ego) wails in the corner.  There was nothing I could do, mental chatter had zero impact - my legs refused to open.  HE'S NOT COMING IN.

"Trust me', he said.

I tried.

Sonja Lockyer